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i love my friends who understand me soo well. it's so hard to explain my feelings especially when i'm on these dumb meds! but there is ALWAYS someone there to pick me up. whether its physically, emotionally or mentally, i have it. thank you
mommy & daddy you are amazing.
mom you don't understand what those late-night, calming talks, tickles, stories and giggles do for me.
daddy you don't understand how your smile, positive thoughts, foot massages, and constant reminder of how much you love your little girl do for me.
i know no matter how much i repeat "i HATE this, i want MY life back, this HURTS, that hurts" nothing is going to change unless i change my attitude and outlook on life.
i know my reasoning for being home at this time in my life.
i never understood the urge and "need" to move home after only 2 years of college.. leaving all of my best friends, my education, a boyfriend, and the most spiritual/clean atmosphere a college student could experience.
melanoma skin cancer stage 3 was found in a mole on my body about a month ago after a visit to my dermatologist. & after many trips to the Dallas Hospital, MRI & PET scans, i.v's, shots, injections and two surgeries I now have to prepare myself for a a little over a month of what is called Alpha Interferon, a form of Chemotherapy. I have to do this because for many years I used tanning beds and spent a lot of time in the sun. I developed a mole and unfortunately the mole became cancerous and spread to my lymph nodes.
for those of you who are wondering if I am scared...
the answer is yes.
for those of you who are wondering how I stay positive..let me introduce you to a few things in my life:
for those of you who are wondering the commonly asked question "will you lose your hair?"
I do not have an answer for you..nor do I want to know the answer. My side effects will be different from others. Everyone is effected differently. Google it. I will not go through radiation treatments.
but please if you do partake in prayer, Please pray for my family
and ALSO know that I will beat this, no matter how hard it gets.
my dad promises me every. single. day.
they don't tell you everything in the stories in the magazines ladies and gents
they also don't tell you this when you "sign" that waiver at the tanning salon.
whether this effects you or not... I do not want to be the one that says " i.told.you.so."
MY STORY WILL BE TOLD. pictures included..be on the look out