too many people are unexpectedly leaving this earth. it's mind blowing and heart shattering, all at the same time. lately my hugs have become tighter and the fear of others leaving my comfort has become overwhelmingly uncomfortable inside me. i know i can't live this way much longer or i'm going to drive myself mad. i'm caught between taking chances, living as young as possible, & traveling alone with _____?_____ being the result or deciding to hide away as a homebody snuggled in a robe by the fire, eating no-bakes, with my family for the rest of my life.